Some people share things on the internet, I'm one of them. It's not for attention, or acceptance or to please others - it's basically just my therapy. It makes me feel better to write it all down and have people, strangers, come back and say 'ME TOO! That's how I feel and this is how I dealt with it'. A sense of understanding from people that aren't biased, be it the good times or bad.
So.
7 years with one person is a really long time; and going through a breakup is like trying to complete an impossible puzzle. And that's where I am right now. My head? Is royally screwed.
I don't want to talk about that in detail. But what I do want to say is it's crap. Writing my weekly blog posts wearing a shiny smile, when really I'd rather punch someones face.
So instead I'm going to take the opportunity and say...
It's been a shoddy few weeks.
But actually I'm really grateful for all the wonderful people in my life and the fact that writing this blog brings little glimmers of hope every week. Be it comments or emails from you, incredible friendships that have blossomed through the interwebs, or surprise parcels like this stupidly amazing Hudl2 tablet from Tesco that landed on my desk Friday morning. I'm so, so ridiculously lucky.
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I'll probably have a cry. But I'll also feel so grateful that I have all of this, at my fingertips.
Thank you to Tesco for this incredible pick me up. Material items certainly don't make problems go away, but this is such a nifty piece of kit and being able to take a lightweight, easy to use, beautiful item of technology on the go with me is pretty awesome.
And thank you to anyone that stops by, because whether you think blogging is pretentious or awesome it's days like these that I give myself a shake and take a look at what I've achieved.
Thankful. Is what I am.
P.S. The Hudl2 was simply sent for review purposes and is seriously amazing, read more about it here and pick up a bargain in time for Christmas
This is such an inspiring post, it can often be forgotten that bloggers have personal lives and lots going on behind their blogs. It's amazing your being so positive about everything, that can be so hard! That tablet looks great as well! :) xxx
ReplyI love my Kindle and I imagine the Hudl is just as good.
ReplyLizzie's Daily Blog
Break ups are seriously hard, I'm right there with you on the emotional rollercoaster right now. Hope reading blogs brings you a little joy this eve
ReplyCharlotte xx
Charlotte's Web
my heart goes out to you, after 7 years it must feel like your world has been turned upside down. I think it will make you stronger in the long run. I had a hard break up, even now it makes me sad to think about it but you have to focus on yourself and look forward. So great that you are so honest with your readers.
Replykimiandme.blogspot.co.uk
I completely understand you. It really does help to write it all down as it's like a weight is being lifted over your shoulder. When things do get better it's also such an amazing experience to look back at the hard times and see how far you've come. I hope things get better soon for you my lovely Xx
ReplyTHEFASHION-JUNKIE
I've had a few shoddy weeks too, but yours definitely sound like they were a struggle as well as just horrid. Heart goes out to you, along with some puppies and rainbows. Your writing is an inspiration and I am so glad these bad times haven't stopped you from shining on through. Keep it up, Rhianne - Little Boots xx
ReplyThis is a lovely post, as always you put into words all those awful feelings so well and still manage to put a positive spin on it!
ReplyPerhaps blogging is a little pretentious, but it does mean that you meet some awesome people
www.jessicainyourear.com
I'm so sorry that you've had this, but you are such a inspiring woman! You have a way with words that I could never handle and I love it! You will get through this even if you have to have a hug from a strange follower like me! ;) *hug*
ReplyDee | PromptsbyDee
I love reading your blog Megs, you've got great style and you seem like such a genuine, down to earth girl. You'll get through it and be even stronger, I'm sure your family will be there to help you as well as all us random strangers you've never met! x
Replywww.hello-freckles.com
Chin up and stay positive! x
Replycherieedle.blogspot.com
I have honestly loved seeing your blog and you evolve and develop over time (I'm normally a silent reader and never comment. But always read your posts), and recently I've felt like I can relate to your posts so much and connect with you - excuse the cringe aspect of this - even if I can't directly say I'm going through the same things. I admire your honesty with your readers on here and really wish you lots of happiness; things will get better :)
ReplyThis is such a lovely post, without really saying much. Sometimes it's just nice to realise you're not alone in how you're feeling, and the best thing you can do in this situation is accepting how you're feeling and knowing that it's okay to feel that way.
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lovely post! :)
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Pretty pictures so festive! X
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ReplySecond time writing this out as I lost the first one but it's worth saying. I was in the same boat as you two years ago. I was in a relationship for just shy of seven years and it ended abruptly and not on the best of terms. To this day it is the best decision I've ever made for myself. We're both so young and we have so much life ahead of us. I know you may be sad right now but there are a million more opportunities that will present themselves as a direct result of the decisions you make today. You are a great person and you're going to do great thing so in the mean time, here's to new chapters and an excuse to eat a tub of moose tracks ice cream. Keep it up girl.
ReplyI really hope you're doing ok, I can't imagine what it must be like to separate after 7 years together. I really appreciate that you're comfortable writing about it here too. I think some people see blogging as escapism in a way, but it's wonderful to read such personal posts that we can relate to.
ReplyTessa / Bramble & Thorn
I'm so glad i'm not the only one going through a horrible break-up. I was with my boyfriend for 6 years and we broke up at the beginning of October but i'm only just seeing the light of the tunnel and realising that i CAN be happy again. I've come through the worst of it, and hopefully you will find that you have too.
ReplyReading your blog and knowing that I'm not the only that that's coming to terms with losing someone you've been with for so long has made me feel like i'm not alone. So thank you for sharing, because you're not alone either.
All i can say to maybe help you and what kept me strong is knowing that life has a set path, and someone else will join you along the ride at some point :). It just wasn't meant to be but life has a strange way of working itself out in the end.
"Things will be alright in the end. If it's not alright, it isn't the end"
Tahira xxx
PS if you ever want to talk you can find me on Twitter @Tahira_Foodie
I can relate, I just broke up afet 6 years and it's taking me months to actually come back. Funny thing is at this moment I'm more worried about my messed up days than being alone: looks like I'm finally getting back on track. More or less.
ReplyI'm finding a way of overcoming this moment in writing, but since I'm pouring my problems in it it's not blogging material, but damn if it works.
Wish you to get better soon, good luck in finding your new balance, I'm cheering for you :)
Currently in the same situation Megs. It's so hard but blogging is getting me through it - writing is so incredibly therapeutic xx
Replyhttp://www.lydialulu.com/2014/12/healing.html
A very open and honest post, hope you start healing soon.
ReplyEmma x
fleurspiration.blogspot.co.uk
I hope you feel happier soon, can't image what it's like to split up with someone after so long. xx
ReplyIoanna | Hearting.co.uk
7 years is a long time and it's completely understandable that it is taking time to get over. But it will get there eventually and, in the meantime, we are thinking of you.
ReplyEmma | frillsanddoodads.com
7 years is a long time so I guess recovery time will be long too, but you have to focus on the good things you have on life, on people who loves you and on what simply makes you happy! Stay strong!
ReplyAnd I have to say, your blog is really inspiring and I love it! Keep going Meg <3
glowingfair.wordpress.com
At the end of the day, we're all only human. But, we're all very different. If you want to express your sadness through social media then so be it.. you express the good parts, so why not the bad? :)
Reply7 years is a big chunk of your existence and I can guess of many questions running through your mind, most of them starting with WHY..
You're entitled to be doing and saying everything you are.
As I've said before, you are a beautiful, strong, loved and liked lady. Don't forget that.
As corny as what it is, it's all going to take time. But continue to surround yourself with those you love, that love you and do things you like. :)
Caroline.x
notesfromcaroline.com
I just wanna say I wish you luck on your future. You did mention in a video with Laura that you'd just got out of a 7 year relationship but you've not disappeared. You're still here blogging and youtubing away and I admire that.
ReplyMalia xx
www.cmalia.blogspot.co.uk
You're such a beautiful and clever woman, I follow you on Instagram and am always amazed by how lovely you obviously are.
ReplyChin up, it can only get better and I'm sure 2015 will be a great year for you.
whatkatydidnextxo.blogspot.co.uk
Love you Megs! I can't even imagine how you are feeling right now as I've never been with anyone that long, but I HAVE gone through some pretty rough breakups in the past and they certainly are the worst. I'm glad you have a good support system around you, I really do think that's the most important thing :) xx
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